"Lost"...Yes, I was...

In a world such as the one we live in, there are people. People who have achieved something marvelous and extraordinary. People whose faces are as recognizable as the face staring back at you in the mirror. People who deserve a red carpet to walk upon and the headline of every newspaper. People who star in t.v. shows. Yesterday I had the fabuuuuuuulous opportunity to attend the final season premiere of *trumpet sounds* LOST. I had never seen the show, but I was in the company of two of the most adoring fans. This event was the highlight of the year for Hawaii. How privileged I was to witness this historic event. Hundreds of people gathered around the red carpet, that was actually brown, and screamed as stars emerged from their limos. I sat back and observed the insanity of these excited fans. "I'm your biggest fan!" "Sign my arm!" "Meeting you is my destiny!" and even "I want to have your children!" Like I said...a historic event. Personally, I was disappointed. I had always wanted to attend a premiere and be two feet away from a "star", but these "stars" were...not very star-like. The red carpet pictures I have seen on t.v. and in magazines are glamorous and beautiful. The real experience is not so glamorous. The stars look like normal people. They are not more beautiful by any means. They don't have any nicer hair than I do and if I say so myself, my hair was much better. Many of them were very unattractive, no offense, and many were overweight. So, WHY??? Why have we built up these people as amazing and extraordinary? All they have done is memorize lines and smile a lot. Costumer service people memorize lines and smile a lot. What's the big deal?? The answer...they're on t.v.

The Details

In recent events I have received complaints regarding the length and content of my blog posts. According to readers the daily posts are too short and vague. So let me humor them and allow myself to dive into the juicy meat of my life in a hole. For starter, the room. Approximately 14x8 square feet in area and the furniture is pink...well purple...well salmon. This room once belonged to one individual and now occupies 2 people, me being one of them. The one window looks out upon a beautiful brick wall and a clothes line...covered in clothes. My bed however is not next to the window, however because the room is so small, it is not hard to see out. My roommate's bed is about two feet away from mine. This distance makes a very small walkway between beds and often causes traffic jams. I'm not complaining because I love Hawaii, well most of it. It is almost impossible for us to be up and getting ready at the same time due to the lack of, once again, space. I try to spend as little time in my room as possible. My roommate on the other hand spends most of her time in here. I don't know how she stands it. Outside of the room and down the hall is what could pass as a bathroom. It it dirty and also salmon colored. Within our sacred salmon unit (that's the four bedrooms and bathroom in 108) reside many species of bugs. Mainly ants, spiders and cockroaches. They are not my friends and we avoid each other. I never would have thought that I would live in a hole with six and eight-legged creatures, but life is full of surprises. In all honesty, this can be very uncomfortable. It's dirty and dark and old. I dream of a time when I had my own room. I think of nice clean carpets and ant-less bathrooms. What can do but enjoy it. No use in complaining. The spiders won't listen.
Service:Picked up some trash on campus. Never realized shy people would want to trash this beautiful place.

Day Seven: Declared

I am declaring a major today. English Literature. Yep it's true. So today for service I helped my roommate with her English homework. It was so fun! I love English and learning and reading and writing. So much can be explored in literature and so much more can be explored when you write down your thoughts. That is the main reason I started this Blog. Yes, I live in a hole and yes, it is very difficult, but I get to capture my dreams everyday by writing down my thoughts and ideas. Life is full of adventure and awesome-ness if you look closely. Do not miss out on the great opportunities around you. Spend more time getting to know yourself. Look at the beautiful around you. Don't take anything for granted. Don't close your eyes during the best part of the movie!

Thank You Day 6

Thank you. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for talking to me today. Thank you for reading this. I believe that one of the most meaningful acts of service we can give is telling someone a heartfelt thank you. Those words, when used correctly, can give someone a feeling of confidence. Those words can make someone smile. And thank you can tell someone how much you appreciate them. Today I told someone thank you...and it was sincere.

Day 5

Service today was telling a girl she dropped her orange. Not really service, but maybe she really wanted that orange. I am terrible at service. The beaches at Hawaii are beautiful. Swimming in the Ocean is salty. I love the feeling of being lifted by a way. It's like flying. One moment your feet are on the sandy ground and the next you are floating. The ocean is so peaceful and I love being here, not having lots of worries and stresses, but just sitting. It's probably what Jack Johnson does all day. Although, I have found it hard being so "free." I have found myself become very bored...Maybe I should just enjoy the liberty, but liberty is not as easy and nice as it seems.

Day 4

Today I had the chance of meeting two of the most pessimistic people on Oahu. One of my pet peeves is a bad attitude. I met a guy at lunch who basically told me everything in the world he hates. Now it was a long list of hated items and when I asked him if he hated everything, he told me that he was "very opinionated about the things I hate." Now, let me say something about his vocabulary choice. For starters, hate is a very strong word. It should be used only when needed, not thrown into conversations like the word "the." Also, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, BUT an opinion should be well thought out. If all this guy does is tell people all the things he hates, who is going to want to tell him anything?
The second person was a girl, so a different kind of pessimism, but still negative. She went on and on about how she is a straight up jerk, and she never wants to be skinny,and skinny girls are obnoxious and more. Lot's more. I do my best to find the good in people. Especially if it is someone I don't like as well. Pessimism is never a good option.
Service of the day: I carried a girl's backpack to her. She had gone swimming and brought her backpack to her. The End

Day 3

Today an elderly lady dropped her papers and I picked them up for her. That's my service. I have come to the realization that Hawaii is very beautiful and even though I am the same person, Hawaii makes me want to be a different and perhaps better person. I have decided to walk slower, enjoying the beauty all around me. I have the desire to wake up earlier and not miss any moment of life in paradise. I have also wanted to appreciate more the people around me and the blessings I receive from the Lord everyday. I am not alone here. I never have been. After talking with my cousin I realized that life is hard, but good comes from hard things and growth is a necessary part of living. I want to live not merely exist. So with each day being a new day, I am going to say my ABC's...you'll see.

Day 2

Service of the day: held the door open for a girl.
Thought of the day: Friends are important.
I have been thinking about my friends. Being away from them has made me realize how much I like them. Ever noticed when you are with someone that you find every little thing about them that bugs you? Well, I did that with my friends and now not having friends has made me realize that good or bad, friends are friends. Sometimes I take for granted the great people that have helped me become who I am. Then I think of all the ways I could have been a better friend to them. Then I am depressed. So, instead of being depressed I am going to be a better friend. Staring off with my roommate. She is a great person and I need all the great people in my life I can find. Here's a shout out to all my wonderful friends. I may not deserve you guys, but I need you guys. Salut from my hole.

Day One

Never in my life did I realize how hard it is to find service opportunities. Maybe I just didn't look for it before, but I had a hard time. You might think that this good deed wan't so good, but in my it counts. While sitting with my roommate doing some homework I decided i wanted some starbursts, a favorite candy of mine. So instead of chowing down by myself, I asked my kind roommate to join me. We sat and feasted on starbursts and occasionally made casual conversation.

A Better Idea

Each day in my hole I wonder what brought me to Hawaii in the first place. This was not what I planned and not that I am complaining, but I gave up a lot for this. The time I am spending over here might have been better spent in my home state with the people I know and love. This might have been the stupidest idea I ever will have, but it was a decision already made. So while I sit and blog in my hole I am going to choose a new path while living here. Each day is new and each day i can be better. I may not have friends, family or even a roommate I can talk to, but the people here deserve everything and probably more that I do. It is my goal to serve one person each day. It could be small or big, seen or unseen, but I will do it. Not only will it take my mind off the cruel people I have met here, but it will teach me how to love others with sincerity. Wish me luck.

My hole in the wall.

I recently moved into a hole. To be exact I now reside in a very small bedroom. Not only is it small but I share it with another person. It is also the residene of several traveling bugs/spiders. But it is my hole, well part mine and I call it home-ish.